State of Health

Sometimes I wonder... will I reach old age and witness the growth of my daughters? Will I be beside my husband 10 or 15 years from now and still enjoy life? Will I be able to fulfill my duties as a wife and mother? These questions come to mind when my myoma acts up and causes me discomfort, even disturbance to my daily activities...like last Saturday when the pain was unbearable and I was unable to prepare dinner. My husband took charge of feeding my daughters and doing their nightly rituals. The following day, I was still unable to get up and attend our church's worship service because of continuing pain. When my husband told me that he had to take care of his own needs in the church, I was filled with guilt. I realized that because of this sickness, I have been remiss in performing my duties as a pastor's wife. I am reminded of God's Word in Eccelesiastes 12:1: "Remember now thy Creator in the days of thy youth, while the evil days come not, nor the years draw nigh, when thou shalt say, I have no pleasure in them." Oh how I wish I am strong and healthy and young! I am on pain relievers round-the-clock, and have been feeling low because of this. However, a text message from a churchmate comforted me: "God is perfect in His directions, and absolute in His decisions, that if we follow Him every step of the way, we have nothing to worry about." And because of this, I have vowed to be responsible and take care of my physical and spiritual health starting this year. More vegetables, start exercising, more reading of God's Word, more fellowships. God will enable me, I am sure of this!